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whee! it's been almost two weeks since i updated...yikes! i know that it's not quite as infrequent as i have been in the past, but i'm trying to be better about it...oh well.

last week was quite crazy for me. i worked monday, tuesday, and friday 9-noon and thursday 6 to noon, took e&t to see the tooth fairy for the free movie on wednesday movie (quite good, incidentally...very good guitar work on there), and i was in guitar camp in the afternoons 1-4. i ALSO did my stint at the radio station last monday 4:45-6, registered to vote, saw toy story 3 with my boyfriend (:D), went to church with his family wednesday night, crashed like a rock thursday night, played progressive rummy and watched monsters vs aliens friday night, went to grandma's saturday and sunday to visit with my aunt who's in the state from virginia, and managed to be totally exhausted by sunday night. whee! oh well...i haved a lot of fun last week :) guitar camp was AWESOME!!!

oh, and also, a week ago friday i went to teen game night and was a buffet line for bugs :P i was also a bit more than slightly tired and crazy...i started laughing at one point and couldn't stop. :P

anyway, i was at the station again today, and i ran the control board for most of the hour :)

and yesterday, at youth group, i sorta volunteered myself to play and sing at a church's chili cook-off. so tonight, i compiled a list of all the praise and worship or Christian songs that i know (for something like that anyway...not hymns), and the list currently totals 19 songs. if you average about 5 minutes per song, that's a 95 minute show! not counting water breaks and introducing/teaching songs and whatnot. oi....and that's if i decide not to throw in some of the stuff that i've written. it's crazy. i'm going to see if i can talk some of my friends into helping me out with this though. ;) it'll be a lot of fun though...i already know i've roped my little sister into helping me. :)

which reminds me...h3h h3h h3h...she's "engaged"...at youth group last night, we had to draw three lines out of a bucket and use them in an improv skit. well, ann was in a group with four boys...no other girls. and one of the lines they drew...you guessed it, "will you marry me?" guess what lucky girl got asked to marry someone?? it was hilarious...but about 65% of the hilarity is from the fact that ann is a self-professed tomboy and the guy who "asked" her is one of her (and my) good friends. i just think it's a riot and love teasing her about it...because she did actually say "yes" ;)

anyway, now that i've gone TOTALLY all over the board with that, i shall shut my random mouth and post something else later! (hopefully a bit more organized!) ;)

-enna

a bit of this, a pinch of that

mundane tidbits:

i entered a poetry contest as a joke, then forgot about it. then about six weeks later, i got an email back saying they chose my poem to be published in their quarterly book! i filled out the necessary paperwork...and forgot about it again until the quarterly came in the mail earlier this week. i'm a published poet...and it was a JOKE!! *sigh* here's the poem:

Fear
I am cowering before the night
The darkness hides my deepest dread
Terror threatens to overwhelm
All I am inside

Can anyone even hear me
Won't anyone come
I am frightened of the darkness in my mind
Please, someone, come and
Save me from my fear

Now I hear a voice saying to
Stand and face my fear
I am not on my own
Someone is with me I cannot see

I will stand before the night
I will not fall
I am not on my own
I can face my fear

in other news, i somehow worked up the courage to take my two littlest sisters (age 8 and 6) to the movies and the beach...by myself. i think i lost my mind momentarily when i volunteered to take them to the beach. i was already taking them to the movies, then i figured, "hey, what the heck, i'm babysitting anyway, so i'll just take them to the beach." my sisters are very energetic, to put it mildly. my littlest sister is almost as bad as my boyfriend's little brother. however, they behaved very well and were extremely happy that i took them. if they keep behaving like that, i may start doing stuff like that more often.

as a last tidbit, i've started going to wednesday night services at my boyfriend's church. at first when i started going, i was somewhat nervous and uncomfortable, and didn't know what to expect. i've started getting more used to it now (though i've yet to contribute to any discussion we've had, whether i've had something to offer or not). what still throws me sometimes is the fact that at a PROTESTANT denomination's service, CATHOLIC saints are discussed. i just find it more than a little odd. the first two weeks, we discussed st. john of the cross and st. bernard of clairvoux. yesterday, the selection was from francois fenelon, a Protestant pastor (makes a little more sense to me), but next week we'll be discussing a selection from st. augustine's confessions, and the week after that we'll be discussing thomas merton (Catholic), a trappist monk who died in 1968. *blinks* i did look through the different selections, and the book that has these selections has about half to two-thirds coming from the doctors and fathers of the Church, and the rest coming from Protestant writers. i don't know if this is typical of Protestants, but it still sorta throws me once in a while.

anyhoo, that's it for now. valete.

-enna

happy 4th of july!

happy independence day! on july 4, 1776, delegations from the thirteen american colonies declared independence from britain. how differently we would view this day if we had NOT won the revolutionary war. but do we remember WHY we fought this war in the first place? why do we celebrate the fourth of july?

INDEPENDENCE...and FREEDOM.

what is this "freedom"? we don't have anarchy; we still have a system of government; we still have laws. but how can we say we are "free" if we have restrictions? the laws give us our basic rights as human beings: to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. we have the RIGHT to life. we have the RIGHT to choose what we want to do. we have the RIGHT to search out happiness in this world and in the next. when america follows these principles, she is great. when america forgets these basic rights, she begins to become less great. alexis de toqueville, a mapmaker from france from the nineteenth century, wrote in his book Democracy in America, "america is great because she is good. if america ceases to be good, she will cease to be great." he's a whole lot wiser than an 18 year old college freshman (me), and it still stands true. if america looses her morality, she sinks to the level of those she stands against - those communists and socialists and anarchists who wish to tell everyone what to do and not permit them the right to choose.

i haven't really discussed political issues on here before, but i'm sure many people, not even hearing me debate politics or whatnot, would peg me as a conservative. i'm not even sure conservative is the right word, though, because some of the conservatives are as loony as the liberals. what i am is a person who LIKED the constitution that was set up, and would prefer that our country return to the government outlined by the constitution. i wish to see the three basic rights of humanity returned to ALL citizens, regardless of age. i wish that people could walk freely in the street and not be accused of bigotry because they dislike obama's politics. (i don't like any of the white guys who have politics like obama; why would i change my mind just because of skin color?) i wish that my beautiful country would remember why she was founded, and why men died - and are still dying - for her. i wish that america could, once again, be good.

happy independence day.

-enna