ugh. ugh ugh ugh UGH!! a friend is in the hospital, my uncle has a 20% chance of survival, i have a headache, it started snowing today, and I JUST WANNA STOP LIFE!!
ok, start back at the beginning, girl. *takes a deep breath* ok, slowing down now...
a person from our Catholic homeschool group is in the hospital. she had an aneurysm. she is now in a coma, and if she comes out of it, the prognosis isn't good.
my uncle has prostate cancer. he had surgery yesterday, and they discovered that the cancer HAS spread. like i said, 20% chance of him living a year.
i have a headache because i had to work for five hours in a hot, humid environment and i pretty well bombed the first hour and fifteen minutes of guitar practice today.
i don't want it to snow! i want it to wait until i have nothing up so that i can enjoy a good snowball fight with my friends. then again, i have no time...
and sometimes, i just want to take life with my hands and make it stop, or at least slow down. i'm moving quickly towards the halfway point of my junior year of high school, and i really don't feel ready. for the SAT, the ACT, college, being on my own, moving...any of it. you take your pick. i just want to stop life at happy times in my life. but, alas, i cannot. so i just have to hope that there are many good times in my future. it doesn't seem like i have many right now.
but, as a russian author once said, "man is born to live, not to prepare for life."
-enna
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