*note to self* do not anticipate - PARTICIPATE!

i swear, i need to tattoo that on my forehead! i was really looking forward to yesterday, and that sorta blew up in my face with just a really bad ending to the day. today started not so great and kept right on going that way...

started with the SAT. i left the house this morning at 7:15 to get to the test center by 7:45. we were *supposed* to start at 8. we didn't until 9. we finished at 1:30, at which time i ran to work. almost literally - i ran to the breeze, drove to the Y, and ran inside. after work, i ran BACK out to the breeze, and drove to church. SOUP did the 4:30 Mass today. so i walked into the enrichment center, grabbed the music, and walked out into the church because Mass was starting in ten minutes.

after Mass, i took ann and louise to tango class. we beat everyone there by a lot...we got there about 5:45, and class didn't even start until 6:30. but it was rather pointless for us to go home, so we waited around in the hallway for about 40 minutes until everyone else got there. but the day got a little nicer at that point...let me try to explain it this way. until about 4:30 this afternoon, every minute felt like an hour, every hour like an entire day. but from about 4:30 on (well, except for waiting in the hallway), time actually moved like it's supposed to. i think that it has to do with something that i had to adjust to last weekend - the post title. don't anticipate, participate. we had no clocks at TEC, no way of knowing what time it was. we were on God's time. it forced us to live fully in the moment and not look forward too much. but i have been finding, in this hectic week since i've come back, that if i continue to do that (to a certain extent - i do have to know what time it is for some stuff), my day goes much smoother. if i simply concentrate on the immediate situation instead of always looking forward, i find that i can enjoy the present so much more than if i was looking towards the future (even if that future is only an hour away).

so - DON'T ANTICIPATE YOUR LIFE; PARTICIPATE IN IT!!

-enna