sorry folks, i had one heck of a bad week last week. particularly from my return home monday evening until about thursday evening. i was hurting pretty bad there for a while and lashing out at people who didn't deserve my anger. all i did was make stuff worse. i'm sorry to those who bore the brunt of my words and acts - none of you deserved to be treated the way i treated you.

i finally started snapping out of it thursday. all day, i kept thinking of random quotes from facing the giants, and decided to watch it then that night instead of continuing to watch the return of the king. it FLOORED me. never doubt that divine providence is there....the message of trust God, no matter what, was exactly what i needed. it also proved another point...no matter how many times you watch a movie or read a book, if you get an urge like that, act on it: it will help you greatly! the rest of the snapping happened friday when mom let me have it (since i'd been moping around all week and lashed out at someone who REALLY didn't deserve it).

a quick update: school, i've made a decision - i'm not taking any extra classes. i'm only doing my classes at home this semester. i burnt myself out last semester and i need a break.

i'm USING my break though ;) i'm finishing scholarship applications up, and i'm also going to be working on recording that CD i mentioned. :) my hope is to have it completed by the end of may to the beginning of june.

and...yah, remember what i posted about my love life? i still really miss him...and am praying for him a lot...as we're currently on no contact as we reevaluate our relationship. prayers are much appreciated.

swimming, i'll do one quick update, then i'm done for the night: i am no longer able to swim the butterfly for more than 10 yards. well, i technically CAN still swim it, but doing so results in knots galore on my shoulder blades. even doing one-armed fly during swim practice is out of the picture for me now...i do breaststroke instead. now THAT is dangerous...flying arms as my head pops up and down...i've managed to keep from getting brained so far, but i've still got two months of practice left...*gulps*.....GOTCHA!!! haha, i'll be fine...i'm good at ducking underwater at the right time ;) i've got my two last meets comin' up, the Valentine's Classic invitational on feb 13 and districts the beginning of march (don't know ezactly when).

that's all, so gnite!

-enna