I started college last Monday, and yes, I love my classes. It's the in-between or during the day that I don't like so much. I'm not very extroverted, so for me to start college has been very difficult. I still don't know very many people. I don't talk much. I pretty much keep to myself. It's not that I don't want to make some new friends; it's that I can't bring myself to make the first step. I don't trust easily, and I've been squashed so many times that I'm extremely reluctant to put myself out anymore.
Actually, I may know a lot of people, but I can count on one hand the number of people I'm close to outside of my immediate family. Actually, on two fingers. I don't open up easily. Which makes this harder than it seems.
It's times like this that truly remind me why we humans surround ourselves with people. We all have some kind of support system that we can trust to catch us if we fall. For some people, their support system is larger than others. It's almost like a web of interconnections. When we need it most, the web will hold us up and keep us from hitting the ground. If a strand is dropped, the others pick up the slack and won't let us fall.
Most of the time, we don't realize what we have until we lose it. For me, with my family and friends at least an hour away most of the time, it's made it very difficult for me during the day without that support system to fall back on. It's making me value what I have even more and helping me truly appreciate it when I am securely within my support system. And when I don't, the loss is all the more acute.
Hold onto your support systems; they keep us afloat.
-enna
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