In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.
God, You know that
I'm not exactly happy with You
At the moment.
Life is topsy-turvy
My head is
Spinning
Round and round
The signs are leaning
Against the porch
A constant reminder when
I pull in the drive
My home
Is now
Just a house for sale
WHY THAT CITY??
WHY NOW?
Why do we have to go
Where we don't know?
Why do my final years of high school
Have to be so full of
Turmoil
Stress
Craziness
And new things?
Isn't high school crazy enough?
Wasn't it enough that
I was leaving anyway in a year?
Sure, I like to see new places - and then go home
Sure, I like to meet new people - when I'm with my friends
I'm TERRIFIED of it!
I'm an introvert!
Not a really bad one
But an introvert all the same
No chance of me knowing anyone
Over there
No chance of a friend to latch onto
Wait...
Oh
You want me to be without them?
You want me to learn how to go through life
Without leaning constantly on them?
You want me to learn how to live my life
Without being entirely dependent on them?
Am I too dependent on them and
Not dependent enough on You?
I guess
If I am honest with myself
You are right
They will not always be there
(Physically, anyway)
They will be a phone call away
An email away
A letter away
But not physically there with me
I need to learn
How to function
On my own
You have a plan
It's a good one
I can't see it all right now
I have to let go
My illusion of control
And let You be the Pilot
I need to remember my lesson from TEC:
"Don't anticipate; participate!"
Let You handle it all
You have the perfect plan for me
And I just need to trust
That You will bring it to fruition
And that You
Know what's best for me
Your little girl
In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.
Oh
And You don't mind
If we do this all again tomorrow
Like we did yesterday
Right?
Good
I knew You'd understand.
In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.
7 comments:
:) "Pray, hope, and don't worry" advice from my old friend Padre Pio ;) :)
just as an aside comment,a friend is not someone who is physically there for you. its not the fun, enjoyable company that makes a person your friend, its the love that person has for you, and you for that person! And it may be hard to leave them, but you must always remember that your friends love you and knowing that helps a lot. you may not see them, but you can pray for them and they for you.
And yes, God knows whats best for you :) He loves you more than any freind or person in your life can possible love you. He will never abandon you!
so know that you may leave, but you will really not be gone for your friends will hold you close in their hearts. :)
a cheery Lil note for Lil Sis!
"Pray, hope, and don't worry!"
Footprints in the Sand
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you."
GOD BLESS YOU!!!
The Lord will carry you!!
i know that...to some extent. that's why i seem to go through this every day...and i know friends aren't necessarily PHYSICALLY there, but i've been spoiled with the ones that i currently do have physically present, and i'm not looking forward to not having them right there anymore. :(
*gives bunches and bunches of hugs* Natalie, I will always be there if you ever need me. Heck, if you call at 3 AM when I'm in a dead sleep, that's perfectly fine. Can't guarantee total coherency, but hey, if you're calling at 3 AM, you prolly aren't coherent either. ;-)
Renwen
i'm not AWAKE at 3 AM! (unless, of course, i'm spending the night with you, and then who needs phones?)
Eh, good point. :P
don't you know it ;)
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